I Gave Up On 2017!
I ALMOST gave up on 2017....
Yep, you read right! It had only been 10 days into 2017, and I was ready to give up and just start all over on February 1st. When I say everything was happening all at once, I was feeling like 2017 was just out of control. I even started to doubt my faith, but only for a quick second. My faith was restored and is now even stronger. So, no worries, I just want to share with you guys some "tea" on what I've been going through.
January 5th was the day I started getting sick, and I was sick until the 10th! I was stuck in bed for 5 days doing nothing productive. I was so disappointed that I was wasting time! Therefore, I did start a new book. "Milk and Honey" by Rapi Kaur. Amazing! If you're into poetry this book is full of raw poetry that will have you in deep, deep thought. Anyway, I never get sick and especially not like that. I had this flu-like bug that had been going around. It was awful! Thankfully, on January 10th I was feeling a lot better. I was ready to record a fashion video with my YouTube partner. Then the worse thing that's ever happened to me, happened (that's a little exaggeration, but it was unimaginable)! I walked into my parking garage and my car was missing - Gone! It was not parked in my parking spot - Ghost!
Imagine something that you spend a lot of time in and you've had since 2009 - Your first baby - the only thing that's been through everything imaginable during a pivotal time in your life. Well, that was my car, Ginger! My very first car and I had planned to keep her until the brakes fell off. Someone stole Ginger right from under my nose. I was in total shock and I was devastated. I asked myself, why is this happening to me?! That's all I could say for a few days. Why me, God, why me? I cried buckets of tears before I could fall asleep that night. I didn't understand why someone would do that to me. Before I could go to sleep that night, I definitely had to stop and pray. I gave the whole situation to God and then did not look back. I complained here and there, but overall you would have never known what I was going through. I instantly remembered that I had so many amazing things happening in my life and goals that I needed to achieve. I choose not to let my car situation hold me back from the blessings that had already began coming my way!
As a result, I didn't give up on 2017 just yet. I knew whatever happened to me was meant to happen. I wasn't expecting my car to be recovered. I began looking at new cars, preparing myself to start the car hunt process, and managing my finances because that would be a new monthly bill. Then, by the grace of God, my car was found! It has been a journey to get Ginger back, she's getting repaired but she is officially safe and sound. If I would have given up on this year, I would not have been able to turn January around and focus on the good things that were happening. I ended this month with a bang! I had my first blog collaboration with a major company, got a phone call to meet with an agency for representation, had 3 auditions, booked my first commercial shoot and started my last semester of graduate school! I could have easily stressed the entire month over things that were out of my control. Instead, I regained my faith and am stronger than ever and ready to take on 2017! This year is STILL MY year. If you've had a rough start this year, it is not over. Your biggest blessings are on the way! Stay strong through difficult times, and DON’T GIVE UP!